This week was good. Wednesday we met with the guy from the missionary department. We had breakfast and he asked us a bunch of questions about the mission. A lot of percentages, like, how many of our missionaries are obedient, or believe they can baptize every month, and things like that. It was awesome! We then had a few lessons with him. One was at our stake president's house and his less-active daughter was there. We taught the Gospel of Jesus Christ and MAN the spirit was tangible. I've probably cried bearing my testimony twice and it happened there. It just felt so real. I could feel charity over come me for this lady. I felt, for a second, a little-bit of how God feels about me. I will always remember that experience. It's burned into my memory for sure.
The next day I was kinda down, no idea why. I think the weather haha. I was praying before I went to bed and I broke down a little bit. I asked Heavenly Father why is it so hard. I asked for forgiveness and then I asked again why is it so hard. Mom, it was amazing. He told me, clearly than I've ever heard before, "Because I know you can handle it." I just wept. The spirit over came me like a waterfall. It was so powerful I couldn't stop crying. Good thing my companion was in the shower so he didn't hear me! I've been having so so many spiritual experiences recently. I never thought I could be this in-tune with the spirit in my life, but I am receiving revelation constantly. I know what the spirit feels like and I know when God speaks to me. It's incredible!!!!!!! Ah I'm so grateful to have the spirit...
This Saturday we'll be having a Zone Conference with Elder Soares of the Quorum of the Twelve!! I was asked to play the organ for it. I found out I have to do 30 MINUTES of prelude. I've never done it that long, so it'll be interesting! I've been practicing a lot and can play a lot of hymns now! And on the organ too! I've only met Elder Cook in person, so it'll be great to meet another Apostle! It's incredible how we can meet and associate with these special witnesses of CHRIST. They know Him and represent Him, just like me. I've realized recently that as a missionary, we are literally appendages to the Apostles. They are Apostles with a capital "A" and we are apostles with a lowercase "a". We can promise blessings and have God honor it, just like D&C 1:38, "whether by mine own voice or by the voice of my servants, it is the same." I've seen those promises come to pass, and they've been extremely humbling.
Man, mom I'm so happy. The time is going by so much faster and I don't like it!!!!!!! I want to stay out here for as long as I can. I love this church. It's got it's imperfections, because the church isn't perfect. It's just a vehicle for the Gospel, which is perfect. People are leaving the church by handfuls and it's horrible. It breaks my heart and even the elect are leaving! It goes to show that you can't sit on the fence anymore. It's basically crunch time for the members of the church.
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